Quintessence

journal entry #38 from the journal i kept in the early years of high school. yung fulish luv haha

The first time I saw you, walking along your own way,

I immediately fell in love with you, not knowing the price I’d pay

Lookin around for that beautiful smile,

Searching for that graceful style,

Yearning just to see you for a priceless moment everyday.

Even though you didn’t know me then,

You never failed to capture my heart.

Even though I stood at a distance,

My encounter with you couldn’t have been coincidence.

Then came the day when we finally became friends

I thought how all my lonely days would finally come to an end.

We spent some time together, although not alone with you,

But it was more than enough for me; my life turned brand new.

But you really never showed any interest in me,

So time took its usual course, and I slowly realized how it could never be.

There was always that hope that you’d see me through,

But everyday passed, leaving a larger gap between me and you.

Nowadays you never look my way, i don’t feel your compassion.

Just talkin bout some other guy, just ignoring my attention.

You pierce my soul when I see you in the halls and you never say hello,

But in my heart I truly know that I can’t ever let you go.

Now time passes by ceaselessly,

And you’ve probably already forgotten about me,

But I’ll never forget you

Because you’ll still have my heart for eternity.

Everyday people look forward to a silver lining in their day.

Mine will always be the time when you come back my way.

-Jcheng

As the days go by and by,

I just can’t help wonder why

You appear in my mind

Through the day and night.

In these days of hardship

Just the thought of you

Drives me to the ends of the planet,

Even to the depths of the blue.

Is it because of your dazzling beauty?

Or your wonderful personality?

I can only say this:

I can’t stop thinking about you,

And everything else about you.

Can you be my star in the sky

The one I look upon every night

Telling you my hopes and dreams

Asking you to watch over me?

Can I put my trust in you

To pull through for me whenever I need you?

Can I hold you close to let you know

That I won’t let got like there’s no tomorrow?

If you let me I’ll always be faithful,

To the end of time as long as I’m able.

-Jcheng

Only for you will I buy flowers for

Bringing you to the best place on the shore

Watching the sunset before there is no more

And then buying you dinner, which is definitely no chore.

Only with you can I share my deepest feelings

All my insecurities and sporadic thinking

Telling you the way I see

Giving you a better understanding of me.

Only by you can I stand as a handsome man

Your beauty emanating everywhere it can

Showing the elegance and magnificence of our unity

Concealing my inadequacy in your ever increasing beauty.

Only for you will I travel to the ends of the earth

To the bottom of the ocean, To the heights of the stars

Because you are the best thing that ever happened to me,

And nothing can keep us apart.

-Jcheng